Another Reality Check

Another Reality Check....

I say 'another' because I just did this 2 weeks ago. A few days ago I got my body fat tested again and measurements done. My body fat dropped .5% and I was a little surprised because as of two weeks ago, I increased my calorie intake by 300 a day. I was expecting my body fat to go up! Well, after sitting down and cross referencing my calories burned to calories consumed I was only getting 60-90 calories over. I am aiming for about 200 over. I about lost it. I was crying, blah blah blah. A lot because of the pressure I'm feeling with my deadline being 8 weeks out (only it could be 6 or 7 but who knows since they haven't posted the competition date yet) and part because I CAN NOT possibly eat any more food! I feel like my whole day is consumed with food. I am beginning to resent food. I need to be consuming anywhere from 2200-2300 calories a day and when your eating clean, that a TON of food. I get 180+ grams of protein a day and I try to keep my macros around a 40-40-20.  Looong emo story short - I am going to take a weight gainer supplement or Ensure everyday. We talked about having a once a day cheat meal of pizza - but then I worry about sabotaging my bodies ability (or lack of ability) to build the muscle I need. So, I think I'm opting for the weight gainer supplement or Ensure. I just need something to give me a few more calories that I won't have to eat and get more full on. Being full is one of the worst feelings to me. Thanksgiving is totally overrated. For me, it's all about the company and less about the mass amounts of food.. ha ha. With that, I'm also going to start taking progress pictures. I'll post some soon. I only wish I would have started earlier to truly appreciate how far I've had to come.